War on Israel, on democracy, on humanity. 

I work, i walk, i breathe. i even play sports, all to try to remain busy with 'normalcy'. but there's nothing normal about this. this is chaos, and uncertainty, it's difficult to manage the difference between reality and dream. we play sports, and when a siren is heard, we run to the bomb shelter, after a few minutes, we come up again and continue to play, until the next siren is heard. us, the neighbors, their children, dogs, caretakers, shop owners, all huddled as we hear sirens and booms. all tense, confused, and terrified. Smiling absurdly to impress hope and dignity on those present around us.

We all check the news for updates, on televisions, on mobile, word of mouth, much blaming for this disaster, lack of an authority, one that is managed with care, with precision, this grand and tragic failure years in the making, led by racist officials in office, by corrupt leaders, but this is not the time we say, but when is the time, it's way past that time. 

Slowly we manage, despite being wary of impending attacks, from multiple places, from inside, from outside from the North the South, from over the ocean, from across the sea, doom in the making, and yet there is light in this darkness, our society our people gathering and working and processing and sending and delivering and providing and servicing and comforting and hoping together for one another for ourselves our friends our families. 

What's harder still is the notion that you as a Jew or an Israeli don't matter, your voice unheard, your pleas your catastrophe unjustified, where people only believe what they are told to believe, not what is actual, what is here and now, and you are blamed for everything. it's exhausting and hard to fathom that you have to explain that terror is not for or about the people, that violence or war is not the solution, that in fact attacking the attacker in order to defend your existence is not right. It's far from over, only the beginning, but eventually i would like to continue to believe that the Good will win, here and everywhere.